To Mom, From Toddler: I Am Doing the Best Can

To Mom, From Toddler: I Am Doing the Best Can

Hi mommy. It’s me, your toddler.

I want you to know something that might not be so clear all the time: I am doing the best I can.

Sometimes it seems like you wish I had a whole lot more figured out by now—like how to control my body and emotions all the time. Or how to manage my time, fix my mistakes, or keep myself busy on my own.

But, I haven’t been around very long, and this whole life thing is still taking some getting used to.

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Here's To the "Beautiful Disasters"

Here's To the "Beautiful Disasters"

Here’s to the girls who are “beautiful disasters.”

The girls who are whole-heartedly true to themselves and still make mistakes every day.
The girls who are never satisfied with staying in one place yet still fall flat on their faces sometimes.
The girls who fight every day for their dreams and still want to throw their faith in them out the window every now and then.

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Some People Say She Is Bossy; I See That She Is a Leader

Some people say she is bossy. I see that she is a leader.

Some people say she is stubborn. I see that she knows what she wants.

Some people say she is dramatic. I see that she knows it is okay to express her feelings.

Some people say that she is difficult. I see that she is powerful.

Some people say that she is too strong. I see that she can fight for herself.

Some people say that she isn't affectionate enough. I see that she understands boundaries.

Some people say that she has a temper. I see that she is safely exploring the temperaments of a two year old girl.

Some people say that she is stubborn. I see that she is constantly aware of her power of choice.

Some people say that she tests limits. I see that she is brave beyond her years.

Some people say that she isn't easy.

And I thank God that they are right.

Because I see that she is perfect just the way she is.

I see that she will dare to be different...she will step out of her comfort zone...she will know who she is inside and out and always remember where she came from.

She will move mountains from the power within her.

I see that she is my spirited little girl and I admire her every single day.

Toddlers Sure Can Teach Us A Lot About How to Live... If We Let Them

Toddlers Sure Can Teach Us A Lot About How to Live... If We Let Them

“No! I can do it by myself.”

It’s the current mantra of my two toddlers that echoes throughout the walls of our home, the doors of our car, and sometimes what seems like the clouds in the sky.

Getting dressed. Putting shoes on.
Brushing teeth. Putting car seat buckle on.
Doing hair. Putting soap on.

Walking. Cooking. Eating. Playing.

You get the picture.

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One Thing That No One Really Prepares You For is All the Thinking That Moms Do

One Thing That No One Really Prepares You For is All the Thinking That Moms Do

One thing about motherhood that no one really prepares you for is all of the thinking that moms do.

If it were possible to do so, I think it would be done, but it simply isn’t; there are some things about being a mom that you just cannot begin to understand until you become one.

Moms across the globe may differ in more ways than one, but there is something that surely unites us all: we do not stop thinking about our children—ever.

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May We Enjoy This Summer... And All The Seasons Of Our Lives

May We Enjoy This Summer... And All The Seasons Of Our Lives

There’s a lot going around right now about taking it easy this summer.

Letting loose. Breaking the rules, redefining the norm, finding some peace and calm after the storm.

Don’t get me wrong, I plan to do the same; but it’s got me thinking about the year we’re coming out of.

What is it exactly that we need such a break from?

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What I Never Knew About Your Year of Two

What I Never Knew About Your Year of Two

I never knew.

Now that you are three, I can honestly say I never knew how life-changing the year of you being two would be—for both of us.

From the day you turned two all the way through the day you turned three, you taught me more about life, love, myself, and you than I could have ever imagined.

Oh, the days were long, my little firework, but I wouldn’t dare change a single moment.

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While I Stay in the Present Moment Today, I Can't Wait For Tomorrow With You

While I Stay in the Present Moment Today, I Can't Wait For Tomorrow With You

I want to stop time from moving so fast.
I want to stop time from letting you grow.

I want to stop time so we can stay in these moments longer.
I want to stop time so we can be in this phase on end.

I want to stop time and just be present in these precious moments forever.

And though it is hard to know I can't, I know our future moments together will be just as special.

So, while I stay in the present moment today, I can't wait for tomorrow with you.

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Let It Go


Let it go!

I sit up on my living room couch - ears perked, mid-movie - as I hear my two-year-old daughter singing her rendition of “Let It Go” for the first time of the night...

The night- you know- the time when she should be sleeping.

Let it go!

I cringe knowing she will surely wake her sleeping baby brother as her lovely notes ever-so-gracefully escalate with each repetition of the key phrase.

The sound calms for a moment and then I hear a vivid recount of the Frozen book we read before bed.

Let it go!

I look in the camera and I see her holding up a book, like a teacher, arms flailing as she acts out Elsa and Ana creating ice palaces left and right.

And then I see it - the shadow of my son…popping up in his crib, arms stretched out to his sister squealing for her attention.

She continues reading and then I hear him utter two of the four words he knows to date, “Uh- oh!”

They go back and forth.

Uh-oh!
Let it go!
Uh-oh!
Let it go!

And suddenly my cringe turns into a smile.

I tell myself to “let it go.”

I fight the urge to hush them back to sleep.
I fight the fear of a horrible night of sleep for us all (because I know how this ends up.)
I fight the need to stare at the monitor, only to quickly gaze at the clock, as I count the minutes they spend awake and not sleeping.
I fight the habit of playing out the picture of a sleep-deprived day tomorrow in my mind.

And I choose to just let it go.

I choose to see their delight in each other’s company.
I choose to see the love in their voices and communication with one another.
I choose to see their playfulness when they know they should be horizontal and snoozing.
I choose to see their joy in just being present in the moment.

And though it can be hard for me, I choose to heed my daughter’s advice and I join her in her ice filled dream world of letting it go.

I might even sing a verse or two from out here on the couch...

They Say to Enjoy Every Second; I Think They Mean Be Present Every Moment

They say it all the time. “Enjoy every second.”

And when you’re a new mom, it gets kind of annoying.

You hear it over and over again, as though you’re exuding the essence of something other than “enjoying every second.”

Sometimes it even adds to the already growing pile of mom guilt— how can you complain of feeling tired or overwhelmed when you’re supposed to be enjoying every second?

I know. I get it. I’ve been there.

But I’m coming to you from not so far on the other side; my babies are only toddlers now...and I’m starting to get it.

I used to think people said it because they were so sad their kids weren’t babies anymore—you know, tiny, little newborn cuddle bunnies or six-month-olds learning to sit and giggle with those adorable chubby cheeks.

But that’s not it— because, you see, as they grow, so does your love. I can already tell that each “phase” will have it’s own perfection, each age will have it’s own adventures, and each moment will have it’s own joy.

I think they say it because they know all too well that in the beginning when it’s all so very new, it’s just really hard to truly stay in the moment.

Let’s be honest, it’s nearly impossible.

Being a new mom and entering motherhood is life changing in all the ways—all of the beautiful, miraculous, and sometimes incredibly overwhelming ways.

So, I think the women saying this may be looking back and thinking they’d probably do some things differently if they could do it again.

They’d probably care a lot less about what others thought, said and did in those early months and instead take the lead from their very own baby.

They’d probably forgive themselves a lot more frequently and give themselves a lot more grace.

They’d probably forget the dishes, the housework, and all the other things they’d plan to accomplish during their maternity leave and bonding time.

They’d probably trust their own intuition a lot more than the opinions of others.

And, you know what? They’d probably really, genuinely try to simply be present in every moment because they know now that as beautiful as the next moment is, the one you’re in right now with that little one will soon be over and you just can’t quite get it back.

They say “enjoy every moment” but I think they mean “be present in every moment.”

And I also think that this may be the single greatest life lesson we mamas may be able to model for our growing children.

You Won't Hear Me Tell My Daughter She Has To Do It All

You Won't Hear Me Tell My Daughter She Has To Do It All

My daughter won’t hear me tell her she has to “do it all.”

Instead, she’ll hear me ask God to keep guiding us both to do what we’re meant to do and be who we’re meant to be.

And she’ll see me doing my best trying to show her that we’re both better off doing what makes us feel genuinely happy —rather than endlessly finding ways to do all.of.the.things.

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